09.06.2010 Monday Labor Day

Labor Day was wierd! The Gnaps had to work today since they are BSU chefs and BSU students have to eat. James and Holly were in Indianapolis to be with her family and so for James to have a vacation day from babysitting, Kristen filled in for him. We had a quiet day here. I am writing this entry after-the-fact and I don't remember anything remarkable about the day except that I was not in Fort Worth for Heidi's birthday as I had planned all summer. I cooked alot for the upcoming week, trying to get things into the refrigerator that Dennis can eat and making sure that the rest of the house is still diabetic friendly. I did get the kitchen reorganized and an extra shelf set up. It's very very pleasant to have things in order and orderly. I'm making myself a bit OCDC with keeping the spaces clean once I get them that way. I know that I should be getting either a quilt done or homework going, but I just cannot wrap my brain around it. My folks will be coming back from Missouri soon and having them at our house is always a stressor. Probably not for them, but definitely for me. It's that first-born thing of "not good enough." I wonder how old I'll be when I stop seeking their approval? Ed said that he never felt that Dorothy approved of him. Dennis says the same thing and so does Peg. I hope I can learn from that mistake to convey to my children that I'm proud of them and not disappointed in their shortcomings. There definitely is no one perfect...or even close!